What's this feeling that I've been feeling for a while?
It hurts me but it also makes me happy
It's kind of like a firework blowing up inside of me
I believe this is called love
One day a bunch of fireworks
Blew up in my heart
Even if it disappears
I want you to know that
I will always love you
Why is it that I'm crying right now?
Is it because you're going to disappear?
Please don't leave me
I need you by my side
One day a bunch of fireworks
Blew up in my heart
Even if it disappears
I want you to know that
I will always love you
I can see you turning your back on me
I'm trying to reach you
But my body is still
Am I going to regret this?
One day a bunch of fireworks
Blew up in my heart
Even if it disappears
I want you to know that
I will always love you
One day a bunch of fireworks
Blew up in my heart
Even if it disappears
I want you to know that
I will always love you
This is Seto Sakura's song in my manga. I got inspired by the person I liked. ^.^ The thing is she likes someone but the guy is stuck in his past with his first love who they found out later that that it's her twin sister.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Please Don't Forgive Me
I was the one who made you cry
I was the one who made you suffer
And I can see that you're still suffering
I need you to understand that
I hate you, but I also love you
When you were crying I just walked away
I was the one who made you cry like that
The one who gave you eternal pain
I wanted you to hate me for the thing that was unbearable
I see that you are coming to understand but
Please don't forgive me
What I did was so bad
I can't even see you forgiving me
But with the personality you have
I'm sure you will
That naive expression is going to lead you to more pain
When you were crying I just walked away
I was the one who made you cry like that
The one who gave you eternal pain
I wanted you to hate me for the thing that was unbearable
I see that you are coming to understand but
Please don't forgive me
I know I hurted you so much
I know you're about to fall down to pieces
But please face it and hate me
Cause the thing that will hurt me the most
Is if you forgive me
When you were crying I just walked away
I was the one who made you cry like that
The one who gave you eternal pain
I wanted you to hate me for the thing that was unbearable
I see that you are coming to understand but
Please don't forgive me
When you were crying, I was crying too
Because I was the reason why you cried
The one who made you unhappy
I wanted you to love me, but the thing I did was unbearable
I know you're understanding, please don't forgive me
But what I really want is for you to forgive me
This is a song I wrote for a character in my manga Cross which I never finshed, but now that I found all of my old writing along with my manga I want to continue. This song is really old, but I got inspired by 'The Gentlemen's Alliance Cross' because the main guy character's younger twin brother's reason for being a brat was close to Hatori Sei's, a guy in my manga, reason for betraying Cross and them, so this is his song. I have a song for all of them.
I was the one who made you suffer
And I can see that you're still suffering
I need you to understand that
I hate you, but I also love you
When you were crying I just walked away
I was the one who made you cry like that
The one who gave you eternal pain
I wanted you to hate me for the thing that was unbearable
I see that you are coming to understand but
Please don't forgive me
What I did was so bad
I can't even see you forgiving me
But with the personality you have
I'm sure you will
That naive expression is going to lead you to more pain
When you were crying I just walked away
I was the one who made you cry like that
The one who gave you eternal pain
I wanted you to hate me for the thing that was unbearable
I see that you are coming to understand but
Please don't forgive me
I know I hurted you so much
I know you're about to fall down to pieces
But please face it and hate me
Cause the thing that will hurt me the most
Is if you forgive me
When you were crying I just walked away
I was the one who made you cry like that
The one who gave you eternal pain
I wanted you to hate me for the thing that was unbearable
I see that you are coming to understand but
Please don't forgive me
When you were crying, I was crying too
Because I was the reason why you cried
The one who made you unhappy
I wanted you to love me, but the thing I did was unbearable
I know you're understanding, please don't forgive me
But what I really want is for you to forgive me
This is a song I wrote for a character in my manga Cross which I never finshed, but now that I found all of my old writing along with my manga I want to continue. This song is really old, but I got inspired by 'The Gentlemen's Alliance Cross' because the main guy character's younger twin brother's reason for being a brat was close to Hatori Sei's, a guy in my manga, reason for betraying Cross and them, so this is his song. I have a song for all of them.
Monday, December 28, 2009
The Beginning
God, who is he? The man who created the world? Is he the man who created humanity, all life and death, greed, wars, fear, and grief? If he is then I think he’s a hypocrite. After all he just sits up in the sky and watches his people suffer and die. How can people stand believing in him? He never helps you when you need the help. He always just watches you cry. If the devil exists then God is the god and the devil.
How can he make horrible things like us? We’re slowly killing our home, our world. The world doesn’t belong to us, we belong to it. We’re only here because of the world and the god, but if he really loves this world so much then why did he create us? Does he even care?
I don’t believe he exists. I would never even if I saw him face to face. ‘Cause that hypocrite is probably just eating right now when I’m talking about him. If he hears me then why doesn’t he do anything? Or is he just sitting and looking pissed off?
Is there even a heaven? Where the pure souls go and become angels? In fact are there even apostles? The apostles are the thirteen people chosen by God. Hmm… have I seen one? No. I don’t even know what they supposedly look like. If they are real then why won’t God give us a sign? A sign to tell us we can be saved? We can’t be saved, because he doesn’t give us a sign.
If I ever meet that hypocrite I’ll beat the shit out of him. He just watched my parents die and brothers leave me. I believed him when I was a kid and all he gave me was grief and loneliness. I had to struggle to just become sixteen now.
He also gave me this horrible body with marks. It’s all over me. That’s why I wear a headband to cover my forehead, boots to cover my legs, gloves to cover my hands, pants, and a long coat to cover everything else. Really what am I, a monster? I’ve also always been above average. That’s why people are jealous me, but they don’t even know how I feel about this. In fact some people keep their distant away from me. Am I that freaking? You know I also asked God this question and he did not reply to me. I repeat, did not.
I mean like is there anybody who is just like me? I feel like why was I even born? Is there any one who can understand me? Who shares my pain? I don’t know maybe god himself. Maybe that’s why he gave me this body. But no one knows because he never shows his ugly god damn face in public.
I wrote this for my book which I never finished. It's the prologue to my book The Beginning. I was very emo-ish back then.
How can he make horrible things like us? We’re slowly killing our home, our world. The world doesn’t belong to us, we belong to it. We’re only here because of the world and the god, but if he really loves this world so much then why did he create us? Does he even care?
I don’t believe he exists. I would never even if I saw him face to face. ‘Cause that hypocrite is probably just eating right now when I’m talking about him. If he hears me then why doesn’t he do anything? Or is he just sitting and looking pissed off?
Is there even a heaven? Where the pure souls go and become angels? In fact are there even apostles? The apostles are the thirteen people chosen by God. Hmm… have I seen one? No. I don’t even know what they supposedly look like. If they are real then why won’t God give us a sign? A sign to tell us we can be saved? We can’t be saved, because he doesn’t give us a sign.
If I ever meet that hypocrite I’ll beat the shit out of him. He just watched my parents die and brothers leave me. I believed him when I was a kid and all he gave me was grief and loneliness. I had to struggle to just become sixteen now.
He also gave me this horrible body with marks. It’s all over me. That’s why I wear a headband to cover my forehead, boots to cover my legs, gloves to cover my hands, pants, and a long coat to cover everything else. Really what am I, a monster? I’ve also always been above average. That’s why people are jealous me, but they don’t even know how I feel about this. In fact some people keep their distant away from me. Am I that freaking? You know I also asked God this question and he did not reply to me. I repeat, did not.
I mean like is there anybody who is just like me? I feel like why was I even born? Is there any one who can understand me? Who shares my pain? I don’t know maybe god himself. Maybe that’s why he gave me this body. But no one knows because he never shows his ugly god damn face in public.
I wrote this for my book which I never finished. It's the prologue to my book The Beginning. I was very emo-ish back then.
Cheer
Here I am still holding on
Still waiting for you to say I love you
But no, no, no I'm waiting here and hugging my doll
Come on, let's give you guys a cheer
For being nobodies to me
This is part of a song I wrote when I was younger. I thought it was really good and it explained me a lot. >_< Now I can write more than that. =) But I always felt like that as the youngest in my family.
Still waiting for you to say I love you
But no, no, no I'm waiting here and hugging my doll
Come on, let's give you guys a cheer
For being nobodies to me
This is part of a song I wrote when I was younger. I thought it was really good and it explained me a lot. >_< Now I can write more than that. =) But I always felt like that as the youngest in my family.
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